Flying High
Jacob loves performing acrobatics in the circus. Sometimes he hangs up to 30 feet in the air!

Maxim Tarasyugin/Shutterstock.com (Background); Courtesy of Circus Smirkus (Jacob); Courtesy of the family (performing)

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The Circus Changed My Life

Jacob, 17, used to have a hard time talking to other kids. Then he joined a circus troupe—and found the confidence he needed to truly be himself.

December 2020-January 2021

By Jacob Crow, as told to Joey Bartolomeo

Courtesy of Circus Smirkus

Performing in the circus is an unbelievable feeling. Sure, I get a little nervous right before I start. But once the lights go on and the music begins, my body feels calm. I’m ready to put on a show and connect with the crowd.

What does that look like? As I do a split, I’ll make eye contact with someone in the front row. I’ll even wink at a little kid while balancing upside down.

It feels really good to see people respond by clapping or laughing. It’s how I know I’m making them happy.

And it’s why I typically spend my summers traveling with a circus troupe made up of kids just like me.

Performing in the circus is a great feeling. I get a little nervous before I start. But once the lights go on and the music begins, I feel calm. I’m ready to put on a show and connect with the crowd.

What does that look like? As I do a split, I’ll make eye contact with someone in the front row. Or I’ll wink at a little kid while I balance upside down.

It feels good when people clap or laugh. It shows that I’m making them happy.

That’s why I spend summers traveling with a circus troupe made up of kids just like me.

Performing in the circus is an unbelievable feeling. Sure, I get a little nervous right before I start—but once the lights go on and the music begins, my body feels calm. I’m ready to put on a show and connect with the audience.

What does that look like? I’ll make eye contact with someone in the front row as I’m doing a split, or I’ll wink at a little kid while balancing upside down.

It feels terrific to see people respond by clapping or laughing. It’s how I know I’m making them happy.

And it’s why I typically spend my summers traveling with a circus troupe made up of kids just like me.

Fear Factor

It might sound like I was born to perform. But I haven’t always been this comfortable in front of a crowd. That’s because I have something called social anxiety. It’s a mental health condition that makes you worry about doing and saying the right things. I usually feel extra nervous around other people.

Having social anxiety isn’t the same as being shy. When you’re shy, you might not like dealing with strangers. But after a little time with them, you relax and can be more comfortable.

With social anxiety, the feelings are more intense. I’ve been afraid to go into a store by myself or place an order at a counter.

Even introducing myself to new people can be really hard. My heart rate goes up. I sweat and shake. I worry they’ll notice I’m struggling and think I’m weird.

It might sound like I was born to perform. But I haven’t always been this comfortable in front of a crowd. I have something called social anxiety. It’s a mental health condition that makes you worry about doing and saying the right things. I often feel nervous around other people.

Having social anxiety isn’t the same as being shy. When you’re shy, you might not like dealing with strangers. But after a little time with them, you relax.

With social anxiety, the feelings are more intense. I’ve been afraid to go into a store by myself. I’ve been afraid to place an order at a counter.

Meeting new people can be hard. My heart rate goes up. I sweat and shake. I worry they’ll see me struggling and think I’m weird.

It might sound like I was born to perform, but I haven’t always been this comfortable in front of a crowd. That’s because I have social anxiety, a mental health condition that makes you worry about doing and saying the right things. I usually feel extra nervous around other people.

Having social anxiety isn’t the same as being shy. When you’re shy, you might not like dealing with strangers—but after a little time with them, you relax and become more comfortable.

With social anxiety, the feelings are more intense—for instance, I’ve been afraid to go into a store by myself or place an order at a counter.

Even introducing myself to new people can be really difficult. My heart rate goes up, and I sweat and shake. I worry they’ll notice I’m struggling and think I’m weird.

Play Time

Using my body has always been easier for me than using my words. That’s why sports have been a big part of my life. Gymnastics used to be my favorite. I liked the challenge of learning different moves and skills.

Then a friend joined a circus studio, and one day I went to one of his shows. I liked what I saw. Circus is a combination of gymnastics and acrobatics. I love moving my body in different ways, so I decided to try it. The people I met were very friendly. When I was around them, I felt less self-conscious than I did at gymnastics. I decided to make the circus my focus.

Some circus performers are clowns, but I’m not good at doing silly things. I prefer acrobatics. I love to balance on one hand or on top of other people. I also like spinning from a rope and straps that hang about 30 feet in the air!

Using my body is easier for me than using my words. That’s why sports are a big part of my life. Gymnastics used to be my favorite.

Then a friend joined a circus studio, and I went to one of his shows. I liked what I saw. Circus is a mix of gymnastics and acrobatics. I love moving my body in different ways, so I gave it a try. The people I met were very friendly. I felt less self-conscious with them than I did at gymnastics. I decided to make the circus my focus.

Using my body has always come more naturally to me than using my words, so sports have been a big part of my life. Gymnastics used to be my favorite. I liked the challenge of learning different moves and skills.

Then a friend joined a circus studio, and I went to one of his shows. I liked what I saw. Circus is a combination of gymnastics and acrobatics. I love moving my body in different ways, so I decided to try it. The people I met were very friendly, and I felt less self-conscious around them than I did at gymnastics. I decided to make the circus my focus.

Some circus performers are clowns, but I’m not good at doing silly things. I prefer acrobatics. I love to balance on one hand or on top of other people, and I like spinning from a rope and straps that hang about 30 feet in the air!

Big-Top Benefits

Courtesy of Circus Smirkus

Circus Buds
One of the things Jacob likes most about his troupe is how friendly everyone is!

The troupe I usually perform with during the summers is called Circus Smirkus. During my first summer, I was unsure of myself and didn’t speak much. But I learned to push through my fear. When you perform balancing moves, you have to work as a team so no one falls. And if something goes wrong, you have to talk through what happened.

When we tour, people let us stay at their homes. That used to make me nervous because I didn’t know what to expect. Every few days I’d have to meet new people, eat new food, and sleep in a different place.

But the more I did it, the easier it became. And that affected my performances. After a while, I was able to go into the audience at shows! I could introduce myself and pose for pictures. I’d remind myself, “You can do this.”

I perform with a troupe called Circus Smirkus. During my first summer, I was unsure of myself. I didn’t speak much. But I learned to push through my fear. When you perform balancing moves, you have to work as a team so no one falls. And if something goes wrong, you have to talk through what happened.

When we tour, people let us stay at their homes. That was hard for me. Every few days I’d have to meet new people, eat new food, and sleep in a new place.

But I got used to it. And that helped me at shows too. After a while, I could go into the audience! I could introduce myself and pose for photos. I’d tell myself, “You can do this.”

When we tour, people let us stay at their homes. That used to make me uncomfortable because I didn’t know what to expect. Every few days I’d have to meet new people, eat new food, and sleep in a different place.

But the more I did it, the easier it became. And that affected my performances. After a while, I was able to go into the audience at shows! I could introduce myself and pose for photographs. I’d remind myself, “You can do this.”

Calm and Confident

I don’t think my social anxiety will ever go away completely. But thanks to what I’ve learned as a circus performer, it has settled down. I’m more outgoing now, and it’s easier to make friends.

I’ve even started to say “thank you” to my dance teacher after class. When my mom noticed, she went, “Wow!” That was the moment I realized how much better I’m doing. And it feels great.

I don’t think my social anxiety will ever go away completely. But thanks to my time in the circus, it’s better. I’m more outgoing now. It’s easier to make friends.

I’ve even started to say “thank you” to my dance teacher after class. When my mom noticed, she went, “Wow!” That made me realize how much better I’m doing. And it feels great.

I don’t think my social anxiety will ever go away completely, but my experiences as a circus performer have helped me learn how to manage those feelings. I’m more outgoing now, and it’s easier to make friends.

I’ve even started to say “thank you” to my dance teacher after class. When my mom noticed, she went, “Wow!” That was the moment I realized how much better I’m doing. And it feels great.

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